I haven't blogged in almost a year. First I was too busy with work, next I was burned out from too much work. Then I was recovering from being burned out. Finally I'm well rested and while I am still moderately busy at work, I am cultivating a spaciousness and a graciousness in my professional world. And the desire to be of service to Gaia never rests, only my human hands must rest.
It is finally 2012. It is a year that has a huge charge around it due to many different myths. For me, it will be the year of creating balance in flow. This year I will remain deeply present and coherent through a number of different situations on a daily basis. I will connect to Gaia on a daily basis. I will remain fully present inside my body as well as being connected to those larger versions of self which are larger than my body. I will maintain the physical self as a temple through which, on occasion, the pure love and light of Gaia may pour through me and into the world. Not because I am unique, but because I intend to empower others to, if they choose, have the same blissful opportunity.
No matter how appealing the lofty heights of consciousness, the body must be fed, groomed, excercised, and above all loved and cherished. That is where balance in flow begins.
Showing posts with label self healing journey. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self healing journey. Show all posts
Friday, January 27, 2012
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
On Soul and The Great Turning
In this Great Turning we all RISE UP together. Yes, some people will die. This is natural. Loved ones who choose to 'check out' provide additional soul matter to fuel the expansion of the remaining souls. When a living soul heals its wounds and grows from 3D to 5D, it is not without the taking in of recently departed souls. You may choose to be a walking heaven for your dearly departed.
Here is the example from one of my children. As she healed her local self, her energies turned and began to attend to matters larger than her self. As her interest expanded, her service expanded, and as she released each remaining wound, her consciousness did expand as well.
Energy is neither created nor destroyed. It is thus with soul. There is but One Soul and the light of soul is cast into a vast kaliedescope of brilliant individual containers. In some eras, Father and I turn the the kaliedescope one click and the light of Soul is cast into a smaller number of containers, yet each container is itself larger - reflecting much more light of the One Soul.
Ego is the shape and color of each facet of the kaleidescopic light of the One Soul.
As my child's consciousness expanded, she herself was not unlike a larger facet in the kaliedescope. She had a very physical integration/expansion experience one evening, with the assistance of a very trusting massage therapist. My child had the sense that her maternal grandparents had been near for some time. In the course of her own healing she discovered and understood that the grandparents felt responsible for some of her woundedness. You see, once departed, the grandparents could percieve the impacts of their choices rippling out through the next two generations. They were lurking about watching because they felt responsible and they were invested in the outcomes.
My child gained the consent of the massage therapist and then proceeded to forgive her grandparents, out loud. She addressed them by name and explained to them all she knew and understood about thier choices and the outcomes which had rippled out for two generations hence.
Then my child validated her grandparents. She explained that she understood the values and concerns which had driven the choices and the actions of the grandparents. She understood that they did the best they knew how and that they always acted from love.The grandparents felt such relief. My child was sobbing tears of joy. So was the massage therapist, who had been massaging my child all the while and listening to the conversation. What happened next was a surprise to my child.I whispered to her that now her grandparents could finally go to rest, if they liked. She spoke this to her grandparents on my behalf. They agreed that they wanted to go to rest. I spoke through my child and asked the grandparents where they wanted to rest. My child heard them answer. They wanted to merge their soul into her waking soul. They wanted to fuel the expansion of her consciousness and in return feel earthly delights, watch the new babies grow, etc.
My child wept as she understood, accepted, and then felt the energy of her grandparents enter into her. They are within her now and they remain a semblance of their former imprint while playing an active contribution to my child's daily experience. My child experiences her expanded soul as self, though she also remembers and recognizes subtle nuances of her grand parents. Particularly when she's engaging with their daughter, who still lives.
This type of soul integration requires agreement on the part of both the living and the deceased. This is happening frequently as we are in the part of the cycle when Father and I turn the kaliedescope and see an overall reduction in the number of individuals with a combined increase in the soul energy of each one. You might view this as merging with your higher self. You may have already had the sense that you are part of a soul family. What you experience as your one higher self may have been the equal value of 12 souls in the dark ages or of 1 soul in Atlantis. Multiple people believe themselves to have been someone famos. Well, the soul energy is so fragmented at the present that there is some truth to this. It takes approximately 777 living 3d humans to add up to the soul energy of one Da Vinci. In the ascention, forms of all kinds recede back into the ethers so that new forms may emerge. The new human has greater faculties and co-creates greater facilities and technologies. Any questions? ♥ Mama
Here is the example from one of my children. As she healed her local self, her energies turned and began to attend to matters larger than her self. As her interest expanded, her service expanded, and as she released each remaining wound, her consciousness did expand as well.
Energy is neither created nor destroyed. It is thus with soul. There is but One Soul and the light of soul is cast into a vast kaliedescope of brilliant individual containers. In some eras, Father and I turn the the kaliedescope one click and the light of Soul is cast into a smaller number of containers, yet each container is itself larger - reflecting much more light of the One Soul.
Ego is the shape and color of each facet of the kaleidescopic light of the One Soul.
As my child's consciousness expanded, she herself was not unlike a larger facet in the kaliedescope. She had a very physical integration/expansion experience one evening, with the assistance of a very trusting massage therapist. My child had the sense that her maternal grandparents had been near for some time. In the course of her own healing she discovered and understood that the grandparents felt responsible for some of her woundedness. You see, once departed, the grandparents could percieve the impacts of their choices rippling out through the next two generations. They were lurking about watching because they felt responsible and they were invested in the outcomes.
My child gained the consent of the massage therapist and then proceeded to forgive her grandparents, out loud. She addressed them by name and explained to them all she knew and understood about thier choices and the outcomes which had rippled out for two generations hence.
Then my child validated her grandparents. She explained that she understood the values and concerns which had driven the choices and the actions of the grandparents. She understood that they did the best they knew how and that they always acted from love.The grandparents felt such relief. My child was sobbing tears of joy. So was the massage therapist, who had been massaging my child all the while and listening to the conversation. What happened next was a surprise to my child.I whispered to her that now her grandparents could finally go to rest, if they liked. She spoke this to her grandparents on my behalf. They agreed that they wanted to go to rest. I spoke through my child and asked the grandparents where they wanted to rest. My child heard them answer. They wanted to merge their soul into her waking soul. They wanted to fuel the expansion of her consciousness and in return feel earthly delights, watch the new babies grow, etc.
My child wept as she understood, accepted, and then felt the energy of her grandparents enter into her. They are within her now and they remain a semblance of their former imprint while playing an active contribution to my child's daily experience. My child experiences her expanded soul as self, though she also remembers and recognizes subtle nuances of her grand parents. Particularly when she's engaging with their daughter, who still lives.
This type of soul integration requires agreement on the part of both the living and the deceased. This is happening frequently as we are in the part of the cycle when Father and I turn the kaliedescope and see an overall reduction in the number of individuals with a combined increase in the soul energy of each one. You might view this as merging with your higher self. You may have already had the sense that you are part of a soul family. What you experience as your one higher self may have been the equal value of 12 souls in the dark ages or of 1 soul in Atlantis. Multiple people believe themselves to have been someone famos. Well, the soul energy is so fragmented at the present that there is some truth to this. It takes approximately 777 living 3d humans to add up to the soul energy of one Da Vinci. In the ascention, forms of all kinds recede back into the ethers so that new forms may emerge. The new human has greater faculties and co-creates greater facilities and technologies. Any questions? ♥ Mama
Thursday, May 27, 2010
The Pre-healing Funk
When you choose to consciously co-create your life with Spirit and Nature, your daily dialogue with your guides will produce numerous healing opportunities. If you intend to change a thing about your self, then you can bet that it will rear its ugly head just before you transform it.
Let me give you a concrete example. Before releasing the need to control situations in the work place you experience a three day run of observing your self as VERY CONTROLLING. This is not at all fun, we never really like that aspect of ourselves we are trying to change. The good news is that when this behavioral pattern or thought construct is amplified, you can be certain that you are transforming it for the last time.
All you need to do is consciously embrace any challenge which comes into your life. Any bullshit which arrises... say to yourself "thank you for this opportunity to transform another aspect of my self." Then simply watch your emotions and reactions over the next few days. I am certain that after a few days of observation you will have seen and released several habits and thought patterns which were no longer serving you.
My motto is that chaos signals an opportunity. Because I believe it so thoroughly,80% of the time I am able to roll with chaos in real time. The other 20% of the time I struggle for a period and then embrace the chaos, trusting that I was about to reach a higher ground.
Create a list of the things which you'd like to learn or transform about yourself. Imagine that your guides or angels are watching you write the list and are ready to create actions and opportunities to help you manifest these visions. Then watch as the pre-healing funk hits you. As soon as you notice that you are living an amplfied version of that which you sought to transform you will relax into peaceful acceptance.
Namaste
Tree of Terrapin Hollow
Let me give you a concrete example. Before releasing the need to control situations in the work place you experience a three day run of observing your self as VERY CONTROLLING. This is not at all fun, we never really like that aspect of ourselves we are trying to change. The good news is that when this behavioral pattern or thought construct is amplified, you can be certain that you are transforming it for the last time.
All you need to do is consciously embrace any challenge which comes into your life. Any bullshit which arrises... say to yourself "thank you for this opportunity to transform another aspect of my self." Then simply watch your emotions and reactions over the next few days. I am certain that after a few days of observation you will have seen and released several habits and thought patterns which were no longer serving you.
My motto is that chaos signals an opportunity. Because I believe it so thoroughly,80% of the time I am able to roll with chaos in real time. The other 20% of the time I struggle for a period and then embrace the chaos, trusting that I was about to reach a higher ground.
Create a list of the things which you'd like to learn or transform about yourself. Imagine that your guides or angels are watching you write the list and are ready to create actions and opportunities to help you manifest these visions. Then watch as the pre-healing funk hits you. As soon as you notice that you are living an amplfied version of that which you sought to transform you will relax into peaceful acceptance.
Namaste
Tree of Terrapin Hollow
Friday, May 21, 2010
Co-creative Partnerships with the Divine
I think of the divine as both Nature and Spirit. Nature, of course, being all matter including our bodies. And Spirit as something which descends from on high to animate the matter in a divine partnership. As humans, we are like bridges between heaven and earth. Our existence is miraculous.
Over time our views of divinity have changed. For two thousand years the western world thought of God as a parent, both benevolent and wrathful. Today both science and spirituality have led us to the view of being connected to divinity as part of a grand unified field, ever emerging and unfolding.
When you set a clear intention both Nature and Spirit reorder your world in order to deliver that which you expect. If you expect bad news... you get bad news. If you expect abundance, you get abundance. I have seen this time and time. Manifestation is a very popular topic, I don't need to explain it here now. However, what I don't think many folks realize is that it all goes much more smoothly if you engage in conversation with both Nature and Spirit.
I'll tell you how I've done it. I ask to connect with Pan and the Deva of Healing - who represent the Nature side of the partnership. They lead the creation and unfoldment of my physical and energetic bodies. Then I ask to connect to the Council of Light. They are the ascended masters, arch-angels, dieties, etc. I don't connect with all of them at once, we each have our own little team of guides. Lastly I ask to connect to my higher self.
From here I either talk directly to them with my voice, or by writing in my journal. I speak about the things I want to heal or learn. Being able to talk about it demonstrates that we're to work on a thing. Most of the time within two or three days some sort of event or drama occurs in my life which appears to be an amplification of that which I've asked to learn or heal. Sometimes it's a re-enactment of something highly emotional. This is an opportunity to live through an event while making new choices and thereby releasing old karma.
Provided I step through the drama with consciousness and care, it then becomes released and I experience an expansion of consciousness as that energy is cleared and re-integrated into my core.
We can work with Nature and Spirit as frequently or infrequently as we like. I generally have a short list of things that I want to work on. There have been periods of time when I healed and released something just about every week. It was a time of rapid growth and change, and it was positive so I let it roll at that faster pace.
Now, there are multiple ways to experience receiving information from the divine. Some of the ways include free writing, painting, art of any kind, channelling, dreaming, meditation, muscle testing, I-ching, runes, tarot, bibliomancy, etc. I have dabbled with most of these but lately I just experience a direct dialogue. The format that works best for you depends upon your learning style. Consider how you would go about learning a new skill such as knitting. Would you get a book, watch a video, have someone show you, hear about it from a friend, etc. After you identify your top two favorite ways to learn, then apply that to communicating with the divine. My primary learning styles are verbal/auditory, and kinestetic. That means that when I'm on a vision quest I actually don't "see" anything. Rather I hear information and I simply know it by a feeling in my body.
I encourage you to invite your guides, either in the way described above or in your own way. Create some sacred space and make a list of what you'd like to work on. Lie still and let Nature and Spirit do energy work in your body. Journal or engage in some form of communication so that you can gain guidance on how to work through your learning list.
Then hang on and enjoy the ride to wholeness and vibrant loving presence!
Much love,
Tree of Terrapin Hollow
Over time our views of divinity have changed. For two thousand years the western world thought of God as a parent, both benevolent and wrathful. Today both science and spirituality have led us to the view of being connected to divinity as part of a grand unified field, ever emerging and unfolding.
When you set a clear intention both Nature and Spirit reorder your world in order to deliver that which you expect. If you expect bad news... you get bad news. If you expect abundance, you get abundance. I have seen this time and time. Manifestation is a very popular topic, I don't need to explain it here now. However, what I don't think many folks realize is that it all goes much more smoothly if you engage in conversation with both Nature and Spirit.
I'll tell you how I've done it. I ask to connect with Pan and the Deva of Healing - who represent the Nature side of the partnership. They lead the creation and unfoldment of my physical and energetic bodies. Then I ask to connect to the Council of Light. They are the ascended masters, arch-angels, dieties, etc. I don't connect with all of them at once, we each have our own little team of guides. Lastly I ask to connect to my higher self.
From here I either talk directly to them with my voice, or by writing in my journal. I speak about the things I want to heal or learn. Being able to talk about it demonstrates that we're to work on a thing. Most of the time within two or three days some sort of event or drama occurs in my life which appears to be an amplification of that which I've asked to learn or heal. Sometimes it's a re-enactment of something highly emotional. This is an opportunity to live through an event while making new choices and thereby releasing old karma.
Provided I step through the drama with consciousness and care, it then becomes released and I experience an expansion of consciousness as that energy is cleared and re-integrated into my core.
We can work with Nature and Spirit as frequently or infrequently as we like. I generally have a short list of things that I want to work on. There have been periods of time when I healed and released something just about every week. It was a time of rapid growth and change, and it was positive so I let it roll at that faster pace.
Now, there are multiple ways to experience receiving information from the divine. Some of the ways include free writing, painting, art of any kind, channelling, dreaming, meditation, muscle testing, I-ching, runes, tarot, bibliomancy, etc. I have dabbled with most of these but lately I just experience a direct dialogue. The format that works best for you depends upon your learning style. Consider how you would go about learning a new skill such as knitting. Would you get a book, watch a video, have someone show you, hear about it from a friend, etc. After you identify your top two favorite ways to learn, then apply that to communicating with the divine. My primary learning styles are verbal/auditory, and kinestetic. That means that when I'm on a vision quest I actually don't "see" anything. Rather I hear information and I simply know it by a feeling in my body.
I encourage you to invite your guides, either in the way described above or in your own way. Create some sacred space and make a list of what you'd like to work on. Lie still and let Nature and Spirit do energy work in your body. Journal or engage in some form of communication so that you can gain guidance on how to work through your learning list.
Then hang on and enjoy the ride to wholeness and vibrant loving presence!
Much love,
Tree of Terrapin Hollow
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Fear and Grace
It seems that there are layers upon layers of fear in my path toward enlightenment. I've grown through so many fears and doubts and processing each layer of fear has been such a huge gift. It's a bit like Grace is the sweet gooey center wrapped in a gob stopper of fear.
My process has gone something like this:
My process has gone something like this:
- I notice that I'm fearful or doubtful about something.
- I quietly connect with my guides.
- I name the fear and ask whether it is better to transform it or embrace it.
- I quietly sense the answer and then ask the guides to help me with whichever action was recommended.
Transform It - I transform fear by asking my guides to help me shift it into my heart. I then use my hands to energetically pull the fear from my gut to my heart. Once the fear is in my heart I appreciate my self in as deep a way possible, so that the electromagnetic frequency of my heart will be in the "coherent - positive emotion" range and this shifts my entire vibration to loving coherence from fearful incoherence.
Embrace It - I embrace my fear by wallowing in it for a bit. I choose to amplify and exagerate the feeling so that I can explore it and understand it. This can take several hours or even a few days. It's scary because once I surrender and dive into my fear I feel like it will consume me completely. But here's the really interesting thing... somewhere in the pits of my own despair I find Grace. I find love, light, and healing down in the darkness.
It is this Grace, this sweetness that I long for at all times. This is what drives me to continue to grow and learn. This is what drives me to be deeply present to my fear, my doubt, my anger, or whatever negative emotional experience might come up in the course of every day living. In some ways I think of myself as a warrior, ever on the quest for a new deamon to slay so that I can revel in the healing and release.
Now that I've intellectualized about my fear (thereby Avoiding processing it) for a few paragraphs. Let me begin to embrace my fear by exposing some of it here.
For three consecutive full moons, I spent 3 evenings feeling wakeful and deeply connected with the Divine Mother, Gaia. During these times I had the experience of chatting with her and hearing her responses as words in my mind. (I often have an internal dialogue with my spirit guides - Pan, Michael, and others). During these conversations Gaia asked me to do several things for her, which I have done. Those include starting a Facebook group called Gaia Rising, planning and hosting monthly phone dialogues for Gaia Rising, and the like.
These evenings were fun and magical and made me feel very special. But on another level, and from another view, I was experiencing insomnia. After three days with much too little sleep a person looses the ability to do regular daily activities... like driving a car or going to work. Only I was feeling good and I didn't realize that I was lacking in those capacities until after getting a little bit of a scare. Thankfully there were no car wrecks, no one got hurt, no jobs were lost... but it was scary because for a few hours I felt out of control.
It made me feel a little crazy. It made my husband wonder. And that called up for me the biggest wound from my current life. In 1995 I lost my mind. I was 20 and I delved very deeply into the expansion of my consciousness. I invited and experienced a number of psychic gifts including telepathy, clairvoyance, clairaudience, etc. But I was doing all that in the most unhealthy ways possible. I was not getting enough food, rest, sunshine, or excercise and I was experimenting with substances which altered my biochemistry. For a period of several months I was really confused and unhealthy. For some of those months I was totally flipping mad. I was insane.
Thank Goddess for my parents who put me in a hospital and got me the help I needed. And thank Goddess for the nurse at the hospital who told me that they weren't interested in changing my spirituallity, they just wanted to make sure that I could take care of my basic needs - like food, shelter, clothing, and interacting with regular people in a regular way. And thank Goddess that I told my husband all about this on our very first date and he fell in love with me anyway.
But ever since then I've had a quantum entanglement between spirituality and sanity. I have predicted plane crashes, heard people's thoughts as if they were speaking outloud, and seen beyond that which is considered ordinary. And I've always wanted to possess these abilities... but for some unfortunate reason on several occassions when my psychic abilities have expanded, it has resulted in my appearing to be, temporarily, completely batty.
With the exception of about 5 hours, I've felt solidly sane for the past 15 years. Yet the scar tissue is immensely out of proportion. While I'm certain that I'm sane, I am fearful that additional spiritual growth might result in me appearing to be temporarily insane again. It puts me right to the place of WHAT IFs. What if I really am crazy? What if I lose everything I care about? What if I lose my job and my family and become homeless and smelly?
And then the other side of me weighs in:
How did you imagine this would look? You believe that all people can expand their consciousness and develop higher sense perception. You have invited this exploration into your life, since childhood. You've spent your entire life experimenting with your consciousness. Your favorite conversations are made of these very topics. Which would be scarier? Waking up to realize that we're all growing these abilities, or waking up and realizing that there is no magic at all?
And with no true sense of resolution I prepare to publish this blog post. I notice that it is scary to be authentic and vulnerable. Yet I press 'publish' with deep trust that my guides would not steer me astray by encouraging me to show this aspect of myself to you.
Monday, March 1, 2010
Know Thyself
Nosce te Ipsum
The greater your knowledge and appreciation of your Self, the greater the resilience you have in times of change. Knowing my Self has really saved my ass on more than one occassion. I reckon that the guy who got rich writing "Chicken Soup for the Soul" was just taking excerpts from his own journal... that those were all pieces of advice he'd picked given himself for how be more successful living his life. Or that guy who wrote "Conversations with God," wasn't he also getting to know himself in the presence of God and the reader?
That's probably the appeal for blogging and tweeting and the like. Who doesn't enjoy talking to them Self? And why not learn things in the presence of others? Martin Buber's philosophy was that God only exists between I and thou. According to him, there is no divine if there is no unfolding relationship. So why not have a super healthy relationship with your Self? And if you believe that we are all ONE, then there are billions of different faces of your Self. Like a kaliedescopic funhouse mirror. "I am you and you are me and we are we, come together right now, over me!"
Today I feel compelled to try and distill all the most valuable things I've learned into 5 or less points. The truth of the matter is I'm doing it just for me. I don't think it's selfish to be Self serving on occassion. Especially if you're the kind of person who cares deeply about others and spends lots of time trying to serve and support others.
The greater your knowledge and appreciation of your Self, the greater the resilience you have in times of change. Knowing my Self has really saved my ass on more than one occassion. I reckon that the guy who got rich writing "Chicken Soup for the Soul" was just taking excerpts from his own journal... that those were all pieces of advice he'd picked given himself for how be more successful living his life. Or that guy who wrote "Conversations with God," wasn't he also getting to know himself in the presence of God and the reader?
That's probably the appeal for blogging and tweeting and the like. Who doesn't enjoy talking to them Self? And why not learn things in the presence of others? Martin Buber's philosophy was that God only exists between I and thou. According to him, there is no divine if there is no unfolding relationship. So why not have a super healthy relationship with your Self? And if you believe that we are all ONE, then there are billions of different faces of your Self. Like a kaliedescopic funhouse mirror. "I am you and you are me and we are we, come together right now, over me!"
Today I feel compelled to try and distill all the most valuable things I've learned into 5 or less points. The truth of the matter is I'm doing it just for me. I don't think it's selfish to be Self serving on occassion. Especially if you're the kind of person who cares deeply about others and spends lots of time trying to serve and support others.
- My experience and emotions change in cycles with the moon and the sun seasons. I like it like that.
- My roots run deep. If I get plenty of rest, sunshine, fresh veggies, and fresh air then I can handle just about anything.
- I am vulnerable. Being Hungry, Angry, Lonely or Tired is feedback which deserves instant self-care. If I'm ever any two of these at the same time I HALT and care for myself.
- The best way to instantly shift a negative emotional experience is to truly feel care or appreciation for someone or something in my life. Facebook has made that really efficient for me!
- All bullshit is an opportunity to grow. Dig in and turn the shit around. It all makes great compost! Can't grow without it!
There's another thing that I can't seem to boil down to a pithy little statement. It has to do with being real and trusting other people. There are months in the spring and summer when I feel deeply serene and my capacity to love and care for others is really expansive. In fall I'm feeling a natural contraction and movement inward. And then sometime every winter I feel lousy and fragile. Sometimes I am afraid to admit it because maybe the people who love the leafy green summer tree will think the scraggly winter tree is ugly or even broken. But thankfully I've been through this winter thing 35 times and I've figured out that it is okay to be a real person. Hell, it's better than okay because most of the time the people who love leafy green summer trees can appreciate that seasons change and some of them actually enjoy being able to nurture and support a scraggly and wind blown nekked winter tree!
It takes a village to raise a child. A tree needs the whole universe... earth, wind, sunlight, water, moonlight, gardeners, apple-eaters, aphids, worms, termites, owls, bullshit, and even a LOGGER and a CARPENTER now and then!
Sunday, February 28, 2010
No More Bricks in the Wall
Lastnight I wrote about some of my growing pains and I finished the entry with these words:
In love I pull out the bricks and begin to build a new wall
In fear I restrict that which seeks to grow through me
And something inside of me dies.
I'm happy to report that moments after writing that my beloved and I had a long and loving conversation. Without betraying him or the moment, let me simply say that he is showing up in our relationship in an entirely new, healthy, and beautiful way.
He dismantles walls and shows each brick
We examine them together
He scapes a beautiful garden wall
We compost and gently turn the soil
And trust that LOVE grows on.
In love I pull out the bricks and begin to build a new wall
In fear I restrict that which seeks to grow through me
And something inside of me dies.
I'm happy to report that moments after writing that my beloved and I had a long and loving conversation. Without betraying him or the moment, let me simply say that he is showing up in our relationship in an entirely new, healthy, and beautiful way.
He dismantles walls and shows each brick
We examine them together
He scapes a beautiful garden wall
We compost and gently turn the soil
And trust that LOVE grows on.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Growing Pains
The more I grow and learn, the more I notice patterns. Today one is really fresh for me. I have long feared that I would grow into something that my family would be unable to love. I suppose in some ways that has already happened at least once.
When I was in my early teens, my parents seemed a little bit akward around the church ladies who would come by and invite them to church. Sure, my parents bought me a bible and paid my way to church camp... it just wasn't their thing. They may have even been relieved when I dropped it at age 16. But then in my phase of deep existential exploration they seemed equally uneasy. I recall one time when I was about 19 and there was some big cult expose' in Texas. I was chatting with my mom about it on the phone and she was asking me odd questions. As if she had a brochure in hand entitled "10 Easy Ways to Tell if your Teen is Trapped in a Freaky Death Cult." I called her on it and she admitted that she was a little worried about me. I thought my response was pretty funny, "Come on mom, you should be more worried about me starting a cult than joining one!" She didn't find it humerous at all.
At some point I learned that my spirituality and my environmental philosophy were simply not to be discussed with my parents. I don't recall that they ever came right out and told me to omit these parts of my self, or whether it was just painfully obvious to me in other ways.
I played along out of respect, love, and a desire to keep the peace. But I was really challenged and felt broken. The problem is that if you try to be a whole person, but you can't be your whole self with certain people, there are walls created within yourself. Sure, I chose to build them... but after a while there were parts of my soul which felt like step children, or East Berliners.
It was not okay to be a witch. It was not okay to be radical or outspoken about anything. It was not okay to think deep thoughts or practice developing higher sense perception. And you gotta know that I was always very open and honest with my parents until that point. So the shift was painful. I didn't know who to be when I was with them, so I just didn't show up there any more; for several years.
It is clear to me that they love me deeply and that they didn't want to hear the things that amplified their worries. But as I drifted further away they worried even more. And I'm highly perceptive, when someone I love is worrying about me I can feel it across space and time.
Well, okay, so I can't be me with my parents. And I can't be my whole self at work. I've always tried to be my whole self with friends, but most of the time I was lucky if I could find one person with which I could be whole, for a few hours or on and off for a few months. And even that was iffy and problematic. I reckon that I'm not alone in this phenomenon. I reckon that there are other people who are perpetually veiwed as weirdos by EVERYONE they know...
And then I met my beloved, and for the first time in my life I could be my whole self. He didn't always agree with my views and theories, but he didn't write me off as crazy either. I really like the fact that we don't agree on everything, it makes for a much interesting conversation. To me the most important factor in falling in love with him was the fact that we could have really DEEP conversations and I could be WHOLE at last.
But I still carry this scar tissue around, this fear that I'll out-grow friends and loved ones. That people who love and understand me now will one day say, "Wow, she really has become a freakin weirdo!"
Because, from time to time, even my beloved gets freaked out by things I do, say, and experience. Every once in a while we pass through a phase where he is uncomfortable with who I am becoming. Conceptually we have discussed what I envision for myself. We've discussed it many times. But discussing abstract concepts of the future and then living through deep learning events are two totally different things.
I live as true to my heart as possible. I believe in a higher force and I have spent my life listening for that still small voice which points me in the right direction. I trust that voice because it has never been wrong. EVERYTHING which has occurred has been a gift.
Yet my dedication to this emerging path of mine creates fear in my beloved. And if I still spoke about it to my parents, it would create fear for them as well. My beloved has even recently asked me to not talk with him about certain things, or even with other people when he is in ear shot.
In love I pull out the bricks and begin to build a new wall
In fear I restrict that which seeks to grow through me
And something inside of me dies.
When I was in my early teens, my parents seemed a little bit akward around the church ladies who would come by and invite them to church. Sure, my parents bought me a bible and paid my way to church camp... it just wasn't their thing. They may have even been relieved when I dropped it at age 16. But then in my phase of deep existential exploration they seemed equally uneasy. I recall one time when I was about 19 and there was some big cult expose' in Texas. I was chatting with my mom about it on the phone and she was asking me odd questions. As if she had a brochure in hand entitled "10 Easy Ways to Tell if your Teen is Trapped in a Freaky Death Cult." I called her on it and she admitted that she was a little worried about me. I thought my response was pretty funny, "Come on mom, you should be more worried about me starting a cult than joining one!" She didn't find it humerous at all.
At some point I learned that my spirituality and my environmental philosophy were simply not to be discussed with my parents. I don't recall that they ever came right out and told me to omit these parts of my self, or whether it was just painfully obvious to me in other ways.
I played along out of respect, love, and a desire to keep the peace. But I was really challenged and felt broken. The problem is that if you try to be a whole person, but you can't be your whole self with certain people, there are walls created within yourself. Sure, I chose to build them... but after a while there were parts of my soul which felt like step children, or East Berliners.
It was not okay to be a witch. It was not okay to be radical or outspoken about anything. It was not okay to think deep thoughts or practice developing higher sense perception. And you gotta know that I was always very open and honest with my parents until that point. So the shift was painful. I didn't know who to be when I was with them, so I just didn't show up there any more; for several years.
It is clear to me that they love me deeply and that they didn't want to hear the things that amplified their worries. But as I drifted further away they worried even more. And I'm highly perceptive, when someone I love is worrying about me I can feel it across space and time.
Well, okay, so I can't be me with my parents. And I can't be my whole self at work. I've always tried to be my whole self with friends, but most of the time I was lucky if I could find one person with which I could be whole, for a few hours or on and off for a few months. And even that was iffy and problematic. I reckon that I'm not alone in this phenomenon. I reckon that there are other people who are perpetually veiwed as weirdos by EVERYONE they know...
And then I met my beloved, and for the first time in my life I could be my whole self. He didn't always agree with my views and theories, but he didn't write me off as crazy either. I really like the fact that we don't agree on everything, it makes for a much interesting conversation. To me the most important factor in falling in love with him was the fact that we could have really DEEP conversations and I could be WHOLE at last.
But I still carry this scar tissue around, this fear that I'll out-grow friends and loved ones. That people who love and understand me now will one day say, "Wow, she really has become a freakin weirdo!"
Because, from time to time, even my beloved gets freaked out by things I do, say, and experience. Every once in a while we pass through a phase where he is uncomfortable with who I am becoming. Conceptually we have discussed what I envision for myself. We've discussed it many times. But discussing abstract concepts of the future and then living through deep learning events are two totally different things.
I live as true to my heart as possible. I believe in a higher force and I have spent my life listening for that still small voice which points me in the right direction. I trust that voice because it has never been wrong. EVERYTHING which has occurred has been a gift.
Yet my dedication to this emerging path of mine creates fear in my beloved. And if I still spoke about it to my parents, it would create fear for them as well. My beloved has even recently asked me to not talk with him about certain things, or even with other people when he is in ear shot.
In love I pull out the bricks and begin to build a new wall
In fear I restrict that which seeks to grow through me
And something inside of me dies.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Change ~ Gentle or Chaotic?
Each one of us is narrating our lives by crafting stories to help our self understand what is occurring. Most of us believe our stories until something comes along that doesn't fit in with they way we've constructed our personal reality. In the current era, everything is changing at a dramatic and unprecedented rate. Everytime something in the world around you changes, it bumps up against your story.
Your story that spans your entire life. It includes information like your name, the places you've lived, the jobs you've had, the people you've loved, and the things you've learned. It also includes assessments you've made about your self over the years, as well as judgements others have made about you. For example, "I'm motivated and intelligent." or "I'm sloppy and lazy."
In this time of unprecedented change you have many choices. Perhaps the most important choice is whether or not you plan to learn and grow through these changes. If the answer is yes, the next important question is whether you want your changes to feel gentle or chaotic.
I've personally experimented with both throughout my life. In my experience, chaotic change usually has a much higher magnitude. Chaotic change can afford you to change dozens of things about your self all in one fell swoop. This type of change strikes me as very intense. In my younger years I actually enjoyed that intensity. I loved the quantum leap in consciousness which accompanied learning dozens of things about my self all at once. But there's a dark side too. It wasn't that I was always happily improving my self, like picking out new carpeting in a house that has decent flooring already. It is more like having the electricity turned on, looking around at the house and realizing that it's full of rats, mold, and the floor is rotting and falling through! Quite frankly it is both scary and depressing to notice dozens of things about your self that aren't as healthy as you'd like to believe.
Gentle change, on the other hand, is quite subtle and requires patience and perserverence. In gentle change you walk into that fixer-upper with a flash light, you pick one room of the house, and you notice and accept the fact that there are a few rats. Of course it is a much slower process, but it is not nearly as traumatic when you take each little aspect of your self one step at a time.
You always have a choice in how you approach your learning and growth. The trick is noticing that you have been making these choices your whole life! You have already sub-consciously chosen either gentle change or chaotic change, or some blend of both.
Putting off many life lessons over a long period of time is one way to choose chaotic change. By ignoring opportunities to gently edit your story, the queue of lessons can get mighty large and gang up on you all at once. There are some clues and cues to let you know whether you might be cruising toward a very chaotic and painful wake-up call:
Your story that spans your entire life. It includes information like your name, the places you've lived, the jobs you've had, the people you've loved, and the things you've learned. It also includes assessments you've made about your self over the years, as well as judgements others have made about you. For example, "I'm motivated and intelligent." or "I'm sloppy and lazy."
In this time of unprecedented change you have many choices. Perhaps the most important choice is whether or not you plan to learn and grow through these changes. If the answer is yes, the next important question is whether you want your changes to feel gentle or chaotic.
I've personally experimented with both throughout my life. In my experience, chaotic change usually has a much higher magnitude. Chaotic change can afford you to change dozens of things about your self all in one fell swoop. This type of change strikes me as very intense. In my younger years I actually enjoyed that intensity. I loved the quantum leap in consciousness which accompanied learning dozens of things about my self all at once. But there's a dark side too. It wasn't that I was always happily improving my self, like picking out new carpeting in a house that has decent flooring already. It is more like having the electricity turned on, looking around at the house and realizing that it's full of rats, mold, and the floor is rotting and falling through! Quite frankly it is both scary and depressing to notice dozens of things about your self that aren't as healthy as you'd like to believe.
Gentle change, on the other hand, is quite subtle and requires patience and perserverence. In gentle change you walk into that fixer-upper with a flash light, you pick one room of the house, and you notice and accept the fact that there are a few rats. Of course it is a much slower process, but it is not nearly as traumatic when you take each little aspect of your self one step at a time.
You always have a choice in how you approach your learning and growth. The trick is noticing that you have been making these choices your whole life! You have already sub-consciously chosen either gentle change or chaotic change, or some blend of both.
Putting off many life lessons over a long period of time is one way to choose chaotic change. By ignoring opportunities to gently edit your story, the queue of lessons can get mighty large and gang up on you all at once. There are some clues and cues to let you know whether you might be cruising toward a very chaotic and painful wake-up call:
- If something negative happens and you dive into a distraction (food, drinking, sex, games, drugs) rather than processing the emotion, you may be ignoring an opportunity to grow.
- If some corner of your mind is concerned or worried about any of your choices, habits, or routines, but you distract yourself and work hard to ignore it, you may be ignoring an opportunity to grow.
- If several people around you are giving you unpleasant feedback and you think they are all full of shit, you may be ignoring an opportunity to grow.
However, if you periodically stop and notice your emotions, and gently probe into the more unpleasant emotions, you will discover that there are little things about your story which could be edited that would produce entirely different results in your daily life.
I recently noticed that one of my daily activities was triggering a small amount of doubt in a corner of my mind and there was even some feedback coming in from a few other people who also shared this doubt about my choice. This morning while I was waking up I stopped to really consider this activity. I decided that while I really gained much good from this activity, there is no benefit to feeling doubt or experiencing others doubt. This morning I made a small edit to how I conduct that activity. I didn't have to nuke the activity, just shifted the components which were creating doubt. Now I feel much better and I may have even avoided manifesting some loud and painful lesson!
I hope you'll consider the story you are writing for your self each day. I hope you will understand that it is not the distraction or activity which is bad. Only our experience of a thing is good or bad. And doubt is a strong signal that some editing would produce an even better story.
In love and light, Tree
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Your Humble Servant
Tonight I signed a covennant. I am bound to give you whatsoever you might ask of me, with a few conditions.
- You actually ASK me for something.
- You consider it a NEED as opposed to a WANT. (You be the judge, not me).
- It is within my ability to say yes.
- It creates no harm. Especially no harm for myself, my family, or our home.
I am bound to do this for free. Yes, free. I will not count on any of these services for direct income. I'm already collaborating with a small group of trusted friends to create a non-profit organization so that if money shows up it will automatically be directed into something charitable. And besides, at the moment I am blessed with a great job and all of my family's needs are met.
I offer all sorts of things, many of which I have specialized training and experience, and some of which, quite frankly, I allow to flow through me on the spot and couldn't really claim to be the source of, and so trying to claim expertise would be akward at best. Here's a stream of consciousness list of a bunch of random stuff one might ask for, but feel free to make up your own request based on your NEED.
- Ritual/ceremony design
- Channeling
- Facilitating dialogue between you and your spirit guides/angels/deceased loved ones, etc.
- Facilitating dialogue (or even mediating) between and among friends, lovers, circles, groups, etc.
- A wide array of healing, including energy/faith healing
- Transition planning (birth, death, marriage, divorce, etc.)
- Helping you die
- Helping you recover
- Life coaching and guidance
- Transformative Hololeaps
- Soul Retrieval
- Past Life Regressions
- Shamanic Journey Work
- Magical/transformative collaborative performance art
- Process design
- Goal planning
- Manifestation: training, planning, and support while you're doing it over time
- Complexity mapping
- Biofeedback sessions
Also, I'm not interested in debating with you or convincing you of anything. I'm not selling anything and so I don't feel compelled to present you with a long list of credentials in this moment. I'm always willing to share this kind of information, but only in the spirit of collaborative exploration.
And here are some very important caveats:
You hold power over your self and the reality you create. I am a humble servant to love and light. Never, under any circumstances, surrender your power to me or anyone affiliated with this work. You are responsible and accountable for your intentions and requests. I am not the source of the love and light, I am merely a chalice on the shelf and you may reach for me any time you feel thirsty for that which might pour in to me - should the Gods wish it.
Your humble servant,
Mama Tree
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Guru, Teacher, or Servant?
In this time of unprecedented change there are countless beings offering up guidance and support. Every person frames their particular offerings differently. There are thousands upon thousands of gurus, teachers, priests, reverends, swamis, yoginis, authors, etc. I like to think that the reason for this flourishing path is that there is more love and light flooding the planet now than in a long time. As each of us learns and grows we reach that precious moment when our focus turns from personal growth and healing to the growth and healing of those around us.
In my book, The Transpiral Model for Social Change, I describe the relationship between personal transformation and social transformation. In brief, you can't change yourself without affecting change in your family, community, and society. And any changes occurring in your family, community, and society also affect change on you personally. We call that "circular causality".
Only you can judge whether or not someone is qualified to teach or guide you through some aspect of your growth and healing. Sai Maa Devi Lakshmi says that the grace of a guru can take you deeper. She explains that a guru holds the frequency of the 5th dimension and that by being in the guru's presence, the student can experience higher frequencies of being and knowing. As a student, only you can determine whether or not the guru produces this kind of tranformative effect on your awareness, both in the moment and over time.
Teachers generally have a set curriculum including models, tools, and practices which are designed for personal growth and healing. Teaching arrangements span from short term to long term and can be one on one or in group settings. Teachers don't appear to promise as much as a guru, but in some cases perhaps they deliver more. Again, only you can judge whether or not engaging with some teacher is going to deepen your natural ability for self healing and growth.
I've long considered these questions for myself. In some paths the Master is the only access point a student has with the divine. In other paths the student learns to speak with the divine for him/her self. Personally I've resonnated with the latter. Over the course of my path I've created relationships with guides and teachers who are on the other side. I call them by the name "The Council of Light". To me, they inlcude beings like the Archangels, Gaia, Jesus, Pan, and the Nature Spirits. The more I surrender my limited self view in order to share understanding with the Council, the more guidance I recieve. My relationship is collaborative and dialogic. I ever maintain free-will. I ask the Council for advice and guidance and then I choose whether to heed the advice or make a new choice.
It has been a very rich relationship over the past 3-4 years which has resulted in very deep healing for myself. While there will always be room to improve myself, of late I'm called to offer support for others who long for self-healing. In my professional career I'm a trainer, facilitator, and organizer of people into groups. When my focus turned from self to others I offered up all my skills and compassion to the Council of Light. The word I use to describe myself is not teacher or guru, or any of the afore mentioned titles. I am a SERVANT. I serve the Council of Light. I serve the emergence of love and light. And I serve anyone who is inviting love and light to emerge in their own lives. In an upcoming post I'll explain the kinds of services I've been called to offer. I'll also elaborate on how I've been guided to release the need to recieve monetary compensation for those services.
Humbly serving Love and Light, ~Tree
In my book, The Transpiral Model for Social Change, I describe the relationship between personal transformation and social transformation. In brief, you can't change yourself without affecting change in your family, community, and society. And any changes occurring in your family, community, and society also affect change on you personally. We call that "circular causality".
Only you can judge whether or not someone is qualified to teach or guide you through some aspect of your growth and healing. Sai Maa Devi Lakshmi says that the grace of a guru can take you deeper. She explains that a guru holds the frequency of the 5th dimension and that by being in the guru's presence, the student can experience higher frequencies of being and knowing. As a student, only you can determine whether or not the guru produces this kind of tranformative effect on your awareness, both in the moment and over time.
Teachers generally have a set curriculum including models, tools, and practices which are designed for personal growth and healing. Teaching arrangements span from short term to long term and can be one on one or in group settings. Teachers don't appear to promise as much as a guru, but in some cases perhaps they deliver more. Again, only you can judge whether or not engaging with some teacher is going to deepen your natural ability for self healing and growth.
I've long considered these questions for myself. In some paths the Master is the only access point a student has with the divine. In other paths the student learns to speak with the divine for him/her self. Personally I've resonnated with the latter. Over the course of my path I've created relationships with guides and teachers who are on the other side. I call them by the name "The Council of Light". To me, they inlcude beings like the Archangels, Gaia, Jesus, Pan, and the Nature Spirits. The more I surrender my limited self view in order to share understanding with the Council, the more guidance I recieve. My relationship is collaborative and dialogic. I ever maintain free-will. I ask the Council for advice and guidance and then I choose whether to heed the advice or make a new choice.
It has been a very rich relationship over the past 3-4 years which has resulted in very deep healing for myself. While there will always be room to improve myself, of late I'm called to offer support for others who long for self-healing. In my professional career I'm a trainer, facilitator, and organizer of people into groups. When my focus turned from self to others I offered up all my skills and compassion to the Council of Light. The word I use to describe myself is not teacher or guru, or any of the afore mentioned titles. I am a SERVANT. I serve the Council of Light. I serve the emergence of love and light. And I serve anyone who is inviting love and light to emerge in their own lives. In an upcoming post I'll explain the kinds of services I've been called to offer. I'll also elaborate on how I've been guided to release the need to recieve monetary compensation for those services.
Humbly serving Love and Light, ~Tree
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Fear
Is fear a gift or a curse? Or some of both?
More and more I see everything in the world like an electrical system... everything and everyone and every action is either positive, negative, or neutral. And let me clarify, negative does not equal bad or evil. I think of it in mathematical terms, 0 is the middle and +1 means movement in one direction and -1 means movement in another direction.
Today I notice I'm feeling afraid. I've worked through many kinds of fear in the past and found that fear can be a huge gift. Fear can be the guardian at the gate of the most sacred temple. Fear can be the building energy on the way to a major break through. Fear can even be a sacred rhythm, providing me with timing to ensure that I don't move too quickly.
Or fear can be debilitating. Fear can drive us to violence, control, and hatred. I believe that every war the planet has seen has its roots in "fear of the other". When we are not elevated enough to understand that we are all connected, we feel disconnected. When we're disconnected our emotions can run away with us. When we are not conscious of our unity, we notice that something is missing. We interpret this sense of lacking as fear that we will not have enough food, shelter, love, etc. This fear justifies competition and conflict and enables our "survival of the fittest" drive.
Thankfully today I've also had some insight about my present fear. I feel like I've been honored with the opportunity to serve Gaia (God, The Great Spirit, the Universe, Love, or whatever name you're most comfortable with) but I fear that I cannot do it alone. Even as I become able to name it I realize that I'm most certainly not alone. And so, I can now accept this fear as the gift of being guided to ask for help. I am blessed with many friends and a wonderful family. As I ask for help the fear dissipates. How blessed are we to have fear as a guide!
More and more I see everything in the world like an electrical system... everything and everyone and every action is either positive, negative, or neutral. And let me clarify, negative does not equal bad or evil. I think of it in mathematical terms, 0 is the middle and +1 means movement in one direction and -1 means movement in another direction.
Today I notice I'm feeling afraid. I've worked through many kinds of fear in the past and found that fear can be a huge gift. Fear can be the guardian at the gate of the most sacred temple. Fear can be the building energy on the way to a major break through. Fear can even be a sacred rhythm, providing me with timing to ensure that I don't move too quickly.
Or fear can be debilitating. Fear can drive us to violence, control, and hatred. I believe that every war the planet has seen has its roots in "fear of the other". When we are not elevated enough to understand that we are all connected, we feel disconnected. When we're disconnected our emotions can run away with us. When we are not conscious of our unity, we notice that something is missing. We interpret this sense of lacking as fear that we will not have enough food, shelter, love, etc. This fear justifies competition and conflict and enables our "survival of the fittest" drive.
Thankfully today I've also had some insight about my present fear. I feel like I've been honored with the opportunity to serve Gaia (God, The Great Spirit, the Universe, Love, or whatever name you're most comfortable with) but I fear that I cannot do it alone. Even as I become able to name it I realize that I'm most certainly not alone. And so, I can now accept this fear as the gift of being guided to ask for help. I am blessed with many friends and a wonderful family. As I ask for help the fear dissipates. How blessed are we to have fear as a guide!
Monday, November 23, 2009
Walking the Path Together
At study circle on 11/14 we discussed the Self Healing Journey. Each one of us is on a self healing journey. We shared some of the twists and turns in our own path before sharing a feast and an open ritual at the Terrapin Hollow home fire.
Each of the six participants, in his or her own way, during the rite, acknowledged the present phase of the journey of self healing. Each person was given the choice of three energetic movements to describe their present moment in the healing journey: Release of some past scar tissue, Acceptance of some current state, or Invitation of some future state.
For our next study circle (12/12/09) we'll Walk the Path Together. Whether your choice was release, acceptance, or invitation; Walking Together will amplify the success of your own Self Healing Journey.
Please plan to share more of your journey with the group. If the elements permit, we'll have our study circle and experiential activity at the Sacred Fire Circle (about 1/8th of a mile down a trail in the woods, so please bring walking shoes). Then we'll follow with a feast and party at the home fire.
This event is open to everyone. RSVP by email or a comment to this post. Blessed Be!
Each of the six participants, in his or her own way, during the rite, acknowledged the present phase of the journey of self healing. Each person was given the choice of three energetic movements to describe their present moment in the healing journey: Release of some past scar tissue, Acceptance of some current state, or Invitation of some future state.
For our next study circle (12/12/09) we'll Walk the Path Together. Whether your choice was release, acceptance, or invitation; Walking Together will amplify the success of your own Self Healing Journey.
Please plan to share more of your journey with the group. If the elements permit, we'll have our study circle and experiential activity at the Sacred Fire Circle (about 1/8th of a mile down a trail in the woods, so please bring walking shoes). Then we'll follow with a feast and party at the home fire.
This event is open to everyone. RSVP by email or a comment to this post. Blessed Be!
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Opening Prayer for The Self Healing Journey Series
"Love is the face and body of the Universe. It is the connective tissue of the universe, the stuff of which we are made. Love s the experience of being whole and connected to Universal Divinity.
All suffering is caused by the illusion of separateness, which generates fear and self-hatred, which eventually causes illness.
You are the master of your life. You can do much more than you thought you could, including cure yourself of a 'terminal illness'. The only real 'terminal illness' is simply being human. And being human is not 'terminal' at all because death is simply transition to another level of being.
I want to encourage you to step out of the normal bounds of your life and to begin seeing yourself differently. I want to encourage you to live your life at the cutting edge of time, allowing yourself to be born into a new life every minute.
I want to encourage you to allow your life experience to be lightly dusted with form."
--Barbara Ann Brennan
All suffering is caused by the illusion of separateness, which generates fear and self-hatred, which eventually causes illness.
You are the master of your life. You can do much more than you thought you could, including cure yourself of a 'terminal illness'. The only real 'terminal illness' is simply being human. And being human is not 'terminal' at all because death is simply transition to another level of being.
I want to encourage you to step out of the normal bounds of your life and to begin seeing yourself differently. I want to encourage you to live your life at the cutting edge of time, allowing yourself to be born into a new life every minute.
I want to encourage you to allow your life experience to be lightly dusted with form."
--Barbara Ann Brennan
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
The Self Healing Journey
Our first study circle topic will be the Self Healing Journey. All people have scar tissue, wounds from past experiences. Over the years we have all done a variety of things for our own healing. In this study circle we'll get to know each other by discussing our paths and sharing the sorts of self healing we've each done in the past.
This will allow us to learn each others history, interests, and talents. It will also get us thinking about the power of sharing our healing journey with a circle of like minds. Each of us has something to bring to the circle, some gift or insight to share. Whether you have been walking your path for 2 or 20 years, your perspective is valuable.
This is an open study circle. Any spiritual or religious tradition is embraced. It will be from 3-5 at Tree's house. Email Tree or post a comment below to request directions for attending. Tree respectfully requests to know in advance who plans to attend, so please either email or leave a comment --even if you already know how to get to Tree's house.
This will allow us to learn each others history, interests, and talents. It will also get us thinking about the power of sharing our healing journey with a circle of like minds. Each of us has something to bring to the circle, some gift or insight to share. Whether you have been walking your path for 2 or 20 years, your perspective is valuable.
This is an open study circle. Any spiritual or religious tradition is embraced. It will be from 3-5 at Tree's house. Email Tree or post a comment below to request directions for attending. Tree respectfully requests to know in advance who plans to attend, so please either email or leave a comment --even if you already know how to get to Tree's house.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
The Coven of Gaia Rising
Our Coven, Gaia Rising, has been together for 1.25 turns of the wheel. We're initiating our newest member on Samhain (closed ritual). We are going to host a Merry Meet sometime in the next 2 months for anyone in the Northern Arkansas area who would like to come and have a potluck and swap stories.
Our coven is a teaching/learning coven. We're starting a study circle and it is not necessary to be a member of the coven to come to the monthly study circle. There are a number of topics which could be studied by the group and it really depends on who joins and what they would like to learn or teach. The first couple of meetings the teaching will be handled by the Coven, after that anyone in the circle may volunteer to host/teach a circle. We all have many gifts to bring, no one voice is more important than any other.
In addition to face to face study circles I'm considering doing distance teaching. If there is an interest I will use virtual meeting tools to engage with groups or individuals.
I feel called to begin the study circle by leading a self-healing journey. I will write more about the self healing journey on this site so that you can understand what you'd be getting by joining the study circle.
In love and light!
Tree
Our coven is a teaching/learning coven. We're starting a study circle and it is not necessary to be a member of the coven to come to the monthly study circle. There are a number of topics which could be studied by the group and it really depends on who joins and what they would like to learn or teach. The first couple of meetings the teaching will be handled by the Coven, after that anyone in the circle may volunteer to host/teach a circle. We all have many gifts to bring, no one voice is more important than any other.
In addition to face to face study circles I'm considering doing distance teaching. If there is an interest I will use virtual meeting tools to engage with groups or individuals.
I feel called to begin the study circle by leading a self-healing journey. I will write more about the self healing journey on this site so that you can understand what you'd be getting by joining the study circle.
In love and light!
Tree
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