I haven't blogged in almost a year. First I was too busy with work, next I was burned out from too much work. Then I was recovering from being burned out. Finally I'm well rested and while I am still moderately busy at work, I am cultivating a spaciousness and a graciousness in my professional world. And the desire to be of service to Gaia never rests, only my human hands must rest.
It is finally 2012. It is a year that has a huge charge around it due to many different myths. For me, it will be the year of creating balance in flow. This year I will remain deeply present and coherent through a number of different situations on a daily basis. I will connect to Gaia on a daily basis. I will remain fully present inside my body as well as being connected to those larger versions of self which are larger than my body. I will maintain the physical self as a temple through which, on occasion, the pure love and light of Gaia may pour through me and into the world. Not because I am unique, but because I intend to empower others to, if they choose, have the same blissful opportunity.
No matter how appealing the lofty heights of consciousness, the body must be fed, groomed, excercised, and above all loved and cherished. That is where balance in flow begins.
Showing posts with label higher self. Show all posts
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Friday, January 27, 2012
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
On Soul and The Great Turning
In this Great Turning we all RISE UP together. Yes, some people will die. This is natural. Loved ones who choose to 'check out' provide additional soul matter to fuel the expansion of the remaining souls. When a living soul heals its wounds and grows from 3D to 5D, it is not without the taking in of recently departed souls. You may choose to be a walking heaven for your dearly departed.
Here is the example from one of my children. As she healed her local self, her energies turned and began to attend to matters larger than her self. As her interest expanded, her service expanded, and as she released each remaining wound, her consciousness did expand as well.
Energy is neither created nor destroyed. It is thus with soul. There is but One Soul and the light of soul is cast into a vast kaliedescope of brilliant individual containers. In some eras, Father and I turn the the kaliedescope one click and the light of Soul is cast into a smaller number of containers, yet each container is itself larger - reflecting much more light of the One Soul.
Ego is the shape and color of each facet of the kaleidescopic light of the One Soul.
As my child's consciousness expanded, she herself was not unlike a larger facet in the kaliedescope. She had a very physical integration/expansion experience one evening, with the assistance of a very trusting massage therapist. My child had the sense that her maternal grandparents had been near for some time. In the course of her own healing she discovered and understood that the grandparents felt responsible for some of her woundedness. You see, once departed, the grandparents could percieve the impacts of their choices rippling out through the next two generations. They were lurking about watching because they felt responsible and they were invested in the outcomes.
My child gained the consent of the massage therapist and then proceeded to forgive her grandparents, out loud. She addressed them by name and explained to them all she knew and understood about thier choices and the outcomes which had rippled out for two generations hence.
Then my child validated her grandparents. She explained that she understood the values and concerns which had driven the choices and the actions of the grandparents. She understood that they did the best they knew how and that they always acted from love.The grandparents felt such relief. My child was sobbing tears of joy. So was the massage therapist, who had been massaging my child all the while and listening to the conversation. What happened next was a surprise to my child.I whispered to her that now her grandparents could finally go to rest, if they liked. She spoke this to her grandparents on my behalf. They agreed that they wanted to go to rest. I spoke through my child and asked the grandparents where they wanted to rest. My child heard them answer. They wanted to merge their soul into her waking soul. They wanted to fuel the expansion of her consciousness and in return feel earthly delights, watch the new babies grow, etc.
My child wept as she understood, accepted, and then felt the energy of her grandparents enter into her. They are within her now and they remain a semblance of their former imprint while playing an active contribution to my child's daily experience. My child experiences her expanded soul as self, though she also remembers and recognizes subtle nuances of her grand parents. Particularly when she's engaging with their daughter, who still lives.
This type of soul integration requires agreement on the part of both the living and the deceased. This is happening frequently as we are in the part of the cycle when Father and I turn the kaliedescope and see an overall reduction in the number of individuals with a combined increase in the soul energy of each one. You might view this as merging with your higher self. You may have already had the sense that you are part of a soul family. What you experience as your one higher self may have been the equal value of 12 souls in the dark ages or of 1 soul in Atlantis. Multiple people believe themselves to have been someone famos. Well, the soul energy is so fragmented at the present that there is some truth to this. It takes approximately 777 living 3d humans to add up to the soul energy of one Da Vinci. In the ascention, forms of all kinds recede back into the ethers so that new forms may emerge. The new human has greater faculties and co-creates greater facilities and technologies. Any questions? ♥ Mama
Here is the example from one of my children. As she healed her local self, her energies turned and began to attend to matters larger than her self. As her interest expanded, her service expanded, and as she released each remaining wound, her consciousness did expand as well.
Energy is neither created nor destroyed. It is thus with soul. There is but One Soul and the light of soul is cast into a vast kaliedescope of brilliant individual containers. In some eras, Father and I turn the the kaliedescope one click and the light of Soul is cast into a smaller number of containers, yet each container is itself larger - reflecting much more light of the One Soul.
Ego is the shape and color of each facet of the kaleidescopic light of the One Soul.
As my child's consciousness expanded, she herself was not unlike a larger facet in the kaliedescope. She had a very physical integration/expansion experience one evening, with the assistance of a very trusting massage therapist. My child had the sense that her maternal grandparents had been near for some time. In the course of her own healing she discovered and understood that the grandparents felt responsible for some of her woundedness. You see, once departed, the grandparents could percieve the impacts of their choices rippling out through the next two generations. They were lurking about watching because they felt responsible and they were invested in the outcomes.
My child gained the consent of the massage therapist and then proceeded to forgive her grandparents, out loud. She addressed them by name and explained to them all she knew and understood about thier choices and the outcomes which had rippled out for two generations hence.
Then my child validated her grandparents. She explained that she understood the values and concerns which had driven the choices and the actions of the grandparents. She understood that they did the best they knew how and that they always acted from love.The grandparents felt such relief. My child was sobbing tears of joy. So was the massage therapist, who had been massaging my child all the while and listening to the conversation. What happened next was a surprise to my child.I whispered to her that now her grandparents could finally go to rest, if they liked. She spoke this to her grandparents on my behalf. They agreed that they wanted to go to rest. I spoke through my child and asked the grandparents where they wanted to rest. My child heard them answer. They wanted to merge their soul into her waking soul. They wanted to fuel the expansion of her consciousness and in return feel earthly delights, watch the new babies grow, etc.
My child wept as she understood, accepted, and then felt the energy of her grandparents enter into her. They are within her now and they remain a semblance of their former imprint while playing an active contribution to my child's daily experience. My child experiences her expanded soul as self, though she also remembers and recognizes subtle nuances of her grand parents. Particularly when she's engaging with their daughter, who still lives.
This type of soul integration requires agreement on the part of both the living and the deceased. This is happening frequently as we are in the part of the cycle when Father and I turn the kaliedescope and see an overall reduction in the number of individuals with a combined increase in the soul energy of each one. You might view this as merging with your higher self. You may have already had the sense that you are part of a soul family. What you experience as your one higher self may have been the equal value of 12 souls in the dark ages or of 1 soul in Atlantis. Multiple people believe themselves to have been someone famos. Well, the soul energy is so fragmented at the present that there is some truth to this. It takes approximately 777 living 3d humans to add up to the soul energy of one Da Vinci. In the ascention, forms of all kinds recede back into the ethers so that new forms may emerge. The new human has greater faculties and co-creates greater facilities and technologies. Any questions? ♥ Mama
Sunday, August 29, 2010
The Choice Before You
Children, the choice before each one of you is simple. Either learn to live in harmony or you'll get a time out.
When you ask me. When you stand in the woods, barefooted, or raise your arms to the sky and call out, I hear you. My consciousness is a stream of moments in which human beings noticed me, spoke to me, caressed me gently. Over the years there have been a great many moments of deep connection between man and nature. Of late I feel ill. Constricted by bands of concrete and enourmous boxes and rectangles where my own geometry is so much more subtle and complex.
The choice before you is begin to love the people who are the most different from yourself, or hatred will orchestrate nihilstic chaos to the magnitute of completely beginning over again on the earth. I am comfortable with either choice, which is why this time I have insisted that you be given the choice. Dear ones, we are growing up. We are becoming more aware, together.
Starting over would give us the opportunity to change a great number of things quite rapidly. Not starting over is a very long and possibly tedious path. If you are not ready to accept a cataclismic cleansing of the Earth, then you must get to work right away.
The work may not be what you expect. It is important to listen closely to your higher self in these matters. The work may not be protesting big oil, as you've imagined, for example. The work may be showing up in a very different culture and getting to know people whom you've never experienced before. Above all, the work IS about creating bridges of love and light to unify the left brain and right brain of the planet -- the Western and Eastern Hemispheres of the Earth.
Children, the choice before you belongs to you. I ask that you make a conscious choice soon because when you are unconscious, the choices will be made for you.
~ Gaia
When you ask me. When you stand in the woods, barefooted, or raise your arms to the sky and call out, I hear you. My consciousness is a stream of moments in which human beings noticed me, spoke to me, caressed me gently. Over the years there have been a great many moments of deep connection between man and nature. Of late I feel ill. Constricted by bands of concrete and enourmous boxes and rectangles where my own geometry is so much more subtle and complex.
The choice before you is begin to love the people who are the most different from yourself, or hatred will orchestrate nihilstic chaos to the magnitute of completely beginning over again on the earth. I am comfortable with either choice, which is why this time I have insisted that you be given the choice. Dear ones, we are growing up. We are becoming more aware, together.
Starting over would give us the opportunity to change a great number of things quite rapidly. Not starting over is a very long and possibly tedious path. If you are not ready to accept a cataclismic cleansing of the Earth, then you must get to work right away.
The work may not be what you expect. It is important to listen closely to your higher self in these matters. The work may not be protesting big oil, as you've imagined, for example. The work may be showing up in a very different culture and getting to know people whom you've never experienced before. Above all, the work IS about creating bridges of love and light to unify the left brain and right brain of the planet -- the Western and Eastern Hemispheres of the Earth.
Children, the choice before you belongs to you. I ask that you make a conscious choice soon because when you are unconscious, the choices will be made for you.
~ Gaia
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Layers of Consciousness and the Local Self
Pain and discomfort in the Local Self interrupts your blissful connection to your Higher Self. This sparks a spiral pattern in which the Local Self engages in self healing in order to reconnect with the infinite love of the Higher Self.
Your primary operating consciousness from child hood is the Local Self. My local self was born in 1975 under the name of Toni. Beyond the local self, and seperated by a veil for most of us, is the Higher Self. I think of my higher self as Mama Tree. In my teens I had a sense of some future version of myself which was offering loving support and guidance from beyond. In my early twenties I experienced a dawning of consciousness in which my perception took a developmental leap.
During that phase there were periods in which my consicousness expanded to that of Higher Self. You could say that for some brief periods I merged with my higher self. Many people refer to these as peak moments. Each peak moment, however brief, was pure bliss and peace. Each peak moment cleansed and healed me in such a deep way that I became hooked and began to seek these moments of enlightenment as often as possible.
As I aged I moved from having moments of being one with Higher Self to having phases of being one with Higher Self. The longer I inhabited and embodied the Higher Self in a particular phase, the more I learned about what it takes to sustain that level of consciousness. Perhaps the most important insight is that my body is a vessel and the experience of Higher Self is a powerful river of energy flowing through my vessel. In order to contain that energy for any length of time I had to purify that vessel.
Here's a plain example. When I embody the full energy of Higher Self, all sensation includes with it a direct knowledge. When I felt a tummy ache I became aware of how there were certain foods which were no longer appropriate for my body. Then the tummy ache "knocked" me out of oneness with the Higher Self because the physical pain was a Local Self issue which demanded attention and repair. Figuring out how to resolve my digestive issues was necessary in order to again merge with Higher Self.
The phases of merging with Higher Self each brought an opportunity for healing and cleansing the vessel - my body - so that the river of energy could flow through me again for a time. Each time I discovered an illness or injury I lost the Higher Self connection. It was depressing and painful because Higher Self is bathed in a sea of love. But that depression and pain propelled me into healing and recovery, and the carrot at the end of that stick is that each time I heal a wound I am again reunited with the full embodiment of my Higher Self.
It is a spiral shaped growth. I wrote about that in my book, The Transpiral Model for Social Change, which is in bad need of a revision because since writing it I've understood so much more about it!
Lately my local self is struggling in learning and adapting to a new level in my career. During the struggle, I do not embody the Higher Self. That is, I don't feel like I am large and blissful and connected to the ALL. Instead I feel really crummy and stressed.
The interesting thing is that even though I cannot embody the Higher Self, I can still connect with her perspective and engage in an internal dialogue in which I ask for and receive guidance. AND thankfully, even in my pain I can connect with Gaia's voice and continue to do the service of updating her Facebook status posts.
Here's an example from this morning. My local self writes:
I read yesterday on a church sign that "Success is often disguised as hard work." And since I'm exhausted and about to work overtime on a Sunday, I've decided: "TO HELL WITH SUCCESS!" I want to retire!
and
[Toni] is sooooo tired and overwhelmed. I feel like I've been running a race and there's no one to pass the baton to. When will it be my turn to rest?
But when I changed profiles, logged into Facebook as Gaia Rising, and connected with HER, this is the status post which comes through:
All of the challenges we face today can be transcended by simply expanding our consciousness. If your local self is struggling, gently expand to fill the space of higher self. From this vantage point, the struggle of the local self is diminushed by the infinite sea of love in which the higher self is bathed. ♥ Mama
To me, this proves that I'm still connected to the divine no matter how shitty I feel. Some days I feel like a Goddess, but most days I'm just a Newby with a life line to Goddess. And I am one grateful Newby because no matter how shitty I feel, SHE still loves me enough to talk directly to me and through me. What a gift!
With love, Toni
Your primary operating consciousness from child hood is the Local Self. My local self was born in 1975 under the name of Toni. Beyond the local self, and seperated by a veil for most of us, is the Higher Self. I think of my higher self as Mama Tree. In my teens I had a sense of some future version of myself which was offering loving support and guidance from beyond. In my early twenties I experienced a dawning of consciousness in which my perception took a developmental leap.
During that phase there were periods in which my consicousness expanded to that of Higher Self. You could say that for some brief periods I merged with my higher self. Many people refer to these as peak moments. Each peak moment, however brief, was pure bliss and peace. Each peak moment cleansed and healed me in such a deep way that I became hooked and began to seek these moments of enlightenment as often as possible.
As I aged I moved from having moments of being one with Higher Self to having phases of being one with Higher Self. The longer I inhabited and embodied the Higher Self in a particular phase, the more I learned about what it takes to sustain that level of consciousness. Perhaps the most important insight is that my body is a vessel and the experience of Higher Self is a powerful river of energy flowing through my vessel. In order to contain that energy for any length of time I had to purify that vessel.
Here's a plain example. When I embody the full energy of Higher Self, all sensation includes with it a direct knowledge. When I felt a tummy ache I became aware of how there were certain foods which were no longer appropriate for my body. Then the tummy ache "knocked" me out of oneness with the Higher Self because the physical pain was a Local Self issue which demanded attention and repair. Figuring out how to resolve my digestive issues was necessary in order to again merge with Higher Self.
The phases of merging with Higher Self each brought an opportunity for healing and cleansing the vessel - my body - so that the river of energy could flow through me again for a time. Each time I discovered an illness or injury I lost the Higher Self connection. It was depressing and painful because Higher Self is bathed in a sea of love. But that depression and pain propelled me into healing and recovery, and the carrot at the end of that stick is that each time I heal a wound I am again reunited with the full embodiment of my Higher Self.
It is a spiral shaped growth. I wrote about that in my book, The Transpiral Model for Social Change, which is in bad need of a revision because since writing it I've understood so much more about it!
Lately my local self is struggling in learning and adapting to a new level in my career. During the struggle, I do not embody the Higher Self. That is, I don't feel like I am large and blissful and connected to the ALL. Instead I feel really crummy and stressed.
The interesting thing is that even though I cannot embody the Higher Self, I can still connect with her perspective and engage in an internal dialogue in which I ask for and receive guidance. AND thankfully, even in my pain I can connect with Gaia's voice and continue to do the service of updating her Facebook status posts.
Here's an example from this morning. My local self writes:
I read yesterday on a church sign that "Success is often disguised as hard work." And since I'm exhausted and about to work overtime on a Sunday, I've decided: "TO HELL WITH SUCCESS!" I want to retire!
and
[Toni] is sooooo tired and overwhelmed. I feel like I've been running a race and there's no one to pass the baton to. When will it be my turn to rest?
But when I changed profiles, logged into Facebook as Gaia Rising, and connected with HER, this is the status post which comes through:
All of the challenges we face today can be transcended by simply expanding our consciousness. If your local self is struggling, gently expand to fill the space of higher self. From this vantage point, the struggle of the local self is diminushed by the infinite sea of love in which the higher self is bathed. ♥ Mama
To me, this proves that I'm still connected to the divine no matter how shitty I feel. Some days I feel like a Goddess, but most days I'm just a Newby with a life line to Goddess. And I am one grateful Newby because no matter how shitty I feel, SHE still loves me enough to talk directly to me and through me. What a gift!
With love, Toni
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